Monday, June 18, 2007

Musical Monday and a Tag

Christine tagged me for a Song Description just in time for Musical Monday! I'm supposed to pick a song that describes me, post the lyrics and then tag someone else. I tag anyone who would like to do it but I specifically tag: Mary, June, Jennifer, Kerri, Jenny, Terri and Ruth.

I thought about it for awhile and looked for some songs but I kept coming back to this one song: "Because You Loved Me" by Celine Dion. From the first time I heard that song it seemed like it was written especially for Jessica and myself. Jessica, as many of you know, has had many medical problems throughout her life. She had strokes among other complications from surgeries. The first stroke was in her speech are of her brain and she wasn't able to speak. With the help of a homebound teacher and a speech therapist I spent hours trying to help Jess learn to communicate. I took a sign language class with my husband and spent time helping her learn sign language which helped her learn to speak. Later, Jess suffered another stroke which left her blind and paralyzed. We had no idea if she would recover from these and I contacted the school for the blind. I spent every minute I could with her trying to help her recover. Not only did she have life-threatening heart defects but she struggled to recover from the strokes. I have always wanted to be a mom and God blessed me with a special family. My sons are wonderful and my daughter has so many special needs and continues to need me so much that one could easily say "enough". Not me. Through the hard times I have seen past the disabilities, past the obstacles and past the pain to see Jessica's faith. SHE is the one who would not give up. SHE is the one who believed in ME. I would have given up if I had been the one going through the heart surgeries and the strokes. I would not have had the courage to face each day if it weren't for JESSICA - she was willing to face each day with a renewed hope and determination to do the things she wanted to do. She wanted to talk. She wanted to walk. She wanted to LIVE. She still has that determination and love of life.
I also have to mention that God believed in me when I thought Jessica deserved someone better.... I had no knowledge or experience in caring for such a sick baby. I truly thought that Jessica should have gone to a "better" mother. God saw a strength in me that I couldn't see. HE loves me and continues to bless me with so much more than I deserve. My husband supports me and loves me so much to. I have found support unimaginable to me online. There are so many families who struggle with CHD who have opened their hearts to us over the last 7 years. I have also met other families who love and support us along with our extended families. We have a long road yet ahead of us and with your support I can face it. I dedicate this song to all of you. I'm everything I am because you loved me.



Written By:
D. Warren
For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'cause you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


4 comments:

GoofyJ said...

Nancy you are awesome. :) This song does describe you. You are a great ezample to me of strength, faith, and love. I am so glad I found your blog and got to meet you - I just hope that some day I get to meet you in person, and Jessica too (and all of your family). :)

Mama Bear June said...

I love this. This meme may take me a while to figure out my song.s

jenny said...

Hey, Nancy,
I think you tagged me....I am still thinking about it, ok? Tough week this week....:(

Terri@SteelMagnolia said...

I love love love that song...
it makes me cry