Jessica is not doing very well right now. Her pain level was WAAAAYYY up yesterday, even after a little extra morphine. She has been coughing and is congested. She is needed back-to-back breathing treatments at times. It is so hard to see her in so much pain. She has mentioned quite a few times lately that she wishes she could be in Heaven with Marcus so she could be out of her painful body. I keep telling her that it's OK to feel that way and that when the time comes, it's OK for her to go. We also talk about "enduring to the end". *sigh* So many mixed emotions here. I love every single hug and kiss and smile she gives me (and there are plenty every day!) and I know I am going to miss that.... but I don't want her to be in pain anymore. She's my baby and I love her so much. I would gladly trade places with her if I could but of course I can't. She has a special mission to do and only she can do it. I have been by her side every step of the way and I'm not giving up now... I just wish there were more I could do.
We appreciate all the prayers and love that you share with us. It's so good to know that we are not going through this alone.
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Oh Nancy, I hope this is just a passed phase for Jess, and in case nobody else has told you lately, you're a WONDERFUL Mom.
Take care & keep smiling
Ann x
((((hugs)))
Oh, Nancy...my heart is with you. I am always praying for you both, but I will do so even more.
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